2009: The year everything changes, apparently.

[feldman]

More things have transpired since my last update than I had realized.

1. We are now a one cat household, instead of two. Squeak was sixteen, in pain, and ready to rest. She was my best kitty, and I miss her.

2. Fairy Grandmother now recognizes me mainly in context with my mother, and does not know me as an adult. She can still make the leap and speak to me as her granddaughter, but the conversation spans a gulf of years. Gesturing to the Cmonkey, she asks me "Do you have a good family? Are you happy?"

3. I have an amazing family. I am unhappy for entirely different reasons.

4. Rehab has done wonders for the entire length of my back, but I'll be glad to have those three nights a week free once the last of the mess is cleaned up. I really could become Batman now that I don't hurt every damn day.

5. Though I may keep going to that clinic, if they let me volunteer.

7. I'm now simultaneously enrolled in two colleges, though only for half a credit so far (CPR certification).

8. On Friday, that bumps up to 4.5 credits (adding Intermediate Algebra).

9. Tonight I'm attending an info meeting for the physical therapy program I want to apply for, after another 30 credits of math, chem and physics.

10. I've given up a year of sleep for the sake of love and responsibility. I can do the same for my own sanity and the chance to do something that fucking matters.

11. Which is better; struggling every day to give a shit about make-work in a 6'x6' charcoal grey cube making squat (either in contribution to society or in the paycheck), or graduating with a debt load 2x your new yearly salary at a job that makes a difference in the world?

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[kernezelda]

11. The latter, if you reasonably feel you can do it, including unforseen emergencies.
10. You can.
9. Go you, Woman Who Knows What You Want.
8-7. Busy, but if you can handle it, good for you.
6. Invisible ink!
5. Going by choice rather than necessity - so much better.
4. What happened to your back?
3. *gives you a big bale of moral support*
2. *hugs you*
1. I'm so sorry.

[fbf.livejournal.com]

11 - ultimately its what ever makes you happiest, and what you can afford. because lets be honest, doing what makes you happy while you get an ulcer because of monetary issues is not doing what makes you happy. I say waork at that degree in bits and if it takes you years, that's fine. its the journey to that final destination that matters.

*loves on the whole feldclan*

[thassalia.livejournal.com]

Loves you. Always believes that work, purpose and joy trumps debt. Always.

[danceswithwords.livejournal.com]

Nobody ever contemplates that kind of debt lightly (at least nobody sane), and a lot depends on your family's circumstances, but... If you think you'll be able to pay it off over time, and the result is getting up every day and going to work at a job that actually means something to you, that's worth doing too. (And specific skills can be an advantage over general skills in a crappy economy sometimes.)