feldman

I have a strange relationship with visual media. I can absolutely obsess over a movie or a show, write a ton of stories, play with the visuals, make playlists, and just toy with a story to a great and deep degree--and not have watched it very much. I rewatch a lot of things, but the more I love something, the more catalytic each viewing becomes. Instead, I rely on eidetic memory and the pleasure of remixing and creating from the source material.

For example, I've wanted to rewatch Brothers Bloom for months now, but I haven't, because I feel like that will be the viewing that will push me into writing Bang-Bang/Stephen. I even downloaded the script, to scratch around that self-indulgent itch, but that only made it worse. It also makes me want to do pen & ink. Neither is a bad thing, really, I've just wanted to focus on completing other shit first.

Farscape wasn't my first fandom, but it cut deeper than any before it for a lot of reasons, and it's a precious thing for me even now. I also haven't seen it for many years. The spouse has started a rewatch, and ohhh...I'd forgotten how visually satisfying this show is. No wonder I didn't just write like a fiend, but also messed around with making icons and mood themes and finger puppets.

It's twenty years old, on a screen three times the size of what I saw it on at first, but it's still so fucking pretty, so textured, so committed to the characters and the alien aesthetics.